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Currently Watching Crazy/ Beautiful By Kirsten Dunst, Jay Hernandez see related

Today...

Weird. I was in a bad mood again. I just think im trying to hard to make people like me. I feel like im being so nice yet maybe im the bad person? No one ever tells me and I wanna know if im not a good friends cuz it surely seems like im not. W.e.

Today I had school. At school hmm nuthin really happened. Lunch sucked. Then p.e which I hung out wit Carla, taylor, and marissa. Thx you guys for helping me out. I feel like carla’s the only person who gets me. And taylor thanks for listening to me and keeping me happy. Then after school walked around wit Carla and talked to brian and selena. Im still trying to make up that hand shake brian hah. Then me and Carla went to see who one the dance thing. We got in 2^nd. Yea. Then went home. Talked to Fernando. Uhhh I was bored until we rented a movie (crazy/beautiful) I really like that movie. I was crying so much. Ughh my eyes were red.

Anyways I jus hope I can figure out wuts bothering me so much cuz I hate being so confused and mad or sad all the time. Its giving me headaches. And uhh nvm. Hmm lets see how the rest of the weekend goes...

<<maybe im trying to hard>>

Currently Playing Greatest Hits By Red Hot Chili Peppers see related

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<<SUCK MY KISS>>

Hmm the past few days have been better.

Im not so mad anymore. Im sure things will be fine soon.

Tuesday- went to school then tutoring wit Elena hah good times, then came to mi casa...chilled... went to dance and then went to get sum dinna. Haha saw chris there. Damn he is so hot! Yummy haha. Fun. Then back home and then Elena left.

Wednesday- school, tutoring hmm then dance. I think we got in second place who knows. Me, Carla and caroline had fun though. So w.e. love you Carla! Your so awesome! Then Back home. Then uhh day was over.

Today- school, tutoring wit Elena hahahahahaha. So fun. We were giving advice to guys and telling them they were gay hah. I love mah Elena! Then back to mi casa and had a talk and then pigged out on food. made strawberry margaritas wit some taquila yaya. we got so hyper off that hah. then went up stairs and I showed her all my poems and we recorded sum stuff on my tape recorder. Then went out to dinner wit papa, bro and ELENA! Yaya. Then to jamba juice were I saw chris again. Hes so mean! But so hot hah. Haha he thinks hes black losaaa.

Wellllllllllllllllllll.  Me and Elena are gonna hang out all weekend haha. Its gonna be fun. Im back to normal everyone! Woot that ass. Yepppp. K latersssss.

Currently Playing Ld 50 By Mudvayne see related

- not falling.

ok im about to loose it. i realized i cant trust anyone. no one is really a friend. everyone is so god i cant even find the word. you all talk shit like you know me. NO ONE FUCKING KNOWS ME. god you all swear like you do. everyone is getting me mad, confused, angry, sad. so many things and making me do shit to myself i shouldn't be doing. i just want to leave. be left alone. die. whatever that will make everyone jus disapear. vanish. into a black whole. a dark box. four sides. no way to enter, no way to exit. fuck that would be great. im turning into a fucking crazy ass weirdo. you all are changing me with your words.everything you say about me jus makes me feel smaller and smaller until i finally jus disapear and i have no one. thats how it feels. like im slowly... fading. fucking sounds crazy huh? yea well im crazy. w.e fuck this shit. fuck you all. im going to hell. and heck i hope so.

Currently Playing Absolution By Muse see related

- time is running out -

I Still Love you

You say u still love me,

But I just don’t know,

I feel like I’m just alone,

Left free to cry,

And then eventually die,

I still love u even though,

You left me in the cold,

To rot as I get old,

Just know I still love u after what u said,

It feels like I’ve been shot,

But if u don’t really love me just stop,

Just don’t say it,

I can’t deal with the pain,

You’re playing with my heart,

Like it’s just a game,

Everything else has changed,

Only one thing stayed the same.   

I Still Love you,

I STILL DO

- Brian made that. Woah, its really good Brian. I obviously like it. K you all tell me what u think and ill tell Brian lol. k bye.